Waiting for the end

This is not the end,this is not the beginning

Just a voice like a riot, rocking every revision

But you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm

Though the words sound steady, something empty's withing 'em

We say yeah

With fists flying up in the air

Like we're holding onto something that's invisible there

'Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear

Until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come

Wishing I had strength to stand

This is not what I had planned

It's out of my control

Flying at the speed of light

Thoughts were spinning in my head

So many things were left unsaid

It's hard to let you go...

I know what it takes to move on

I know how it feels to lie

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new

Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room

Trying to forget the past

This was never meant to last

I wish it wasn't so...

I know what it takes to move on

I know how it feels to lie

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new

Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone

I thought it felt right but that right was wrong

All caught up in the eye of the storm

And trying to figure out what it's like moving on

And I don't even know what kind of things I said

My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead

Picking up the pieces, now where to begin?

The hardest part of ending is starting again.

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new

Holding on to what I haven't got

This is not the end, this is not the beginning

Just a voice like a riot, rocking every revision

But you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm

Though the words sound steady, something empty's withing 'em

We say yeah

With fists flying up in the air

Like we're holding onto something that's invisible there

'Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear

Until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear

..............

ada sesuatu dalam diri saya.
sesuatu yang tak boleh nak dibuang.
sesuatu yang berharga.
sesuatu yang membuat saya serabut.
yang sering mengikut ke mana saja saya pergi.



tapi saya tak tahu apa benda sesuatu itu.

macam mana nak buang kalau tak tahu kan?

*kusut tanpa sebab*

??????

Without reason, I cry.

Without reason, I feel empty.

Without reason, I feel alone.

Without reason, I miss you.

And today without reason, you appear again in my mind.

It's all because of no reason.

songs for you~

songs for you. sorry. still in "getting over him" mood.
but nyway lagu ni memang nice. i like~ u_u

mix~

FEELINGS.

LOVE.

HUMAN BEING.

*rules : 

 1. hormat perasaan aku.

 2. bergurau biar tengok tempat.

 3. dislike all gedik gurlz

 4. treat me as a girl even i have a boyish attitude.

nowadays orang dah jadi tak sensitif dengan perasaan orang lain.... *sigh*

Two years~

sedar tak sedar dah dua tahun lebih peristiwa tu.
baru kini aku sedar yang aku tak boleh terima keadaan ni.
he is so special to me. when i said special i mean it. so so so special.
you can't imagine how special he was to me.
back to two years ago, i was happy with him eventhough i had someone in my heart but he is the best.
he always there for me when i really need someone.
he always advice me and guide waht to do when i have problems.
we always support each other in anything we do.
and the most important thing is he was there besides me, always, lebih-lebih lagi masa aku putus cinta rasa nak tercabut nyawa dulu.

i miss this sweet memory time. aku tak rasa perasaan ni bila hangout dengan orang lain. it's different with you.

no one can ever replace him.
i really miss the day bila kitorang hangout berdua.
but now he had his own life now.
he has a girlfriend but he has totally change.
aku dah jadi jauh sangat dengan dia.
bila aku ade problems or nak share something happy dengan dia aku kena fikir berkali kali.
sebab takut girlfriend dia jeles nanti.

paling aku terasa, bila hari tu konvoi raya aku ada amek gambar berdua dengan dia.
tapi bila upload kat FB dia langsung tak masukkan gambar tu.
kenapa sampai macam tu sekali?bukan ke girlfriend dia kenal aku, tahu kedudukan aku di sisi dia?
but nevermind. aku rela berundur demi kebahagiaan dia.

for you, i really miss you and our happy time together.
i may sound selfish but i really hope that i can have you back like before.
ini bukan bermakna aku cintakan kau tapi aku cuma rindukan sahabat baik aku.
aku cuma perlukan someone yang really really understand me.
even aku hangout dengan girlfriends aku, tapi mereka tak sama dengan kau.
sebab bila aku dengan kau aku feel secure and happy even aku ada problems.

and now i've realise that our friendship is not worth it for you to protect.
you rather lost your bestfriend forever than your girlfriend.
but for me, you always there in my heart and no one can ever replace you even if i have a boyfriend.
aku masih dan akan sentiasa anggap kau bestfriend aku.
dan aku akan sentiasa ada kalau kau perlukan bahu untuk menangis seperti dulu dulu.