songs for you~

songs for you. sorry. still in "getting over him" mood.
but nyway lagu ni memang nice. i like~ u_u

mix~

FEELINGS.

LOVE.

HUMAN BEING.

*rules : 

 1. hormat perasaan aku.

 2. bergurau biar tengok tempat.

 3. dislike all gedik gurlz

 4. treat me as a girl even i have a boyish attitude.

nowadays orang dah jadi tak sensitif dengan perasaan orang lain.... *sigh*

Two years~

sedar tak sedar dah dua tahun lebih peristiwa tu.
baru kini aku sedar yang aku tak boleh terima keadaan ni.
he is so special to me. when i said special i mean it. so so so special.
you can't imagine how special he was to me.
back to two years ago, i was happy with him eventhough i had someone in my heart but he is the best.
he always there for me when i really need someone.
he always advice me and guide waht to do when i have problems.
we always support each other in anything we do.
and the most important thing is he was there besides me, always, lebih-lebih lagi masa aku putus cinta rasa nak tercabut nyawa dulu.

i miss this sweet memory time. aku tak rasa perasaan ni bila hangout dengan orang lain. it's different with you.

no one can ever replace him.
i really miss the day bila kitorang hangout berdua.
but now he had his own life now.
he has a girlfriend but he has totally change.
aku dah jadi jauh sangat dengan dia.
bila aku ade problems or nak share something happy dengan dia aku kena fikir berkali kali.
sebab takut girlfriend dia jeles nanti.

paling aku terasa, bila hari tu konvoi raya aku ada amek gambar berdua dengan dia.
tapi bila upload kat FB dia langsung tak masukkan gambar tu.
kenapa sampai macam tu sekali?bukan ke girlfriend dia kenal aku, tahu kedudukan aku di sisi dia?
but nevermind. aku rela berundur demi kebahagiaan dia.

for you, i really miss you and our happy time together.
i may sound selfish but i really hope that i can have you back like before.
ini bukan bermakna aku cintakan kau tapi aku cuma rindukan sahabat baik aku.
aku cuma perlukan someone yang really really understand me.
even aku hangout dengan girlfriends aku, tapi mereka tak sama dengan kau.
sebab bila aku dengan kau aku feel secure and happy even aku ada problems.

and now i've realise that our friendship is not worth it for you to protect.
you rather lost your bestfriend forever than your girlfriend.
but for me, you always there in my heart and no one can ever replace you even if i have a boyfriend.
aku masih dan akan sentiasa anggap kau bestfriend aku.
dan aku akan sentiasa ada kalau kau perlukan bahu untuk menangis seperti dulu dulu.

my future~

sejak-sejak dah habis diploma ni dalam kepala aku sekarang pikir pasal masa depan.

aku pun tak tahu aku ni nak jadi apa.

sebelum ni aku ikut je flow hidup aku.

apa yang aku dapat tu la yang aku belajar.

apa mak abah suruh buat tu la yang aku buat.

tapi bila dah umur 21 ni semua nya dah kena pikir sendiri.

mak abah pun dah tak masuk campur sangat pasal masa depan aku.

yang diorang nak aku ada kerja tetap je.

kalau dulu asyik push aku asyik tanam dalam otak aku jadi doktor.

tapi sekarang diorang dah tak kisah.

mintak maaf mak abah sebab tak dapat jadi doktor.

anak mu ini memang bengap sains. HAHAHA

tapi abah ada la nasihat jugak suruh mintak SPA tu.

dia suruh isi SPA tu sebab SPA senang.

nanti kerja dengan government dah senang hidup. dah ada pencen.

then dia kata sambung degree tu boleh buat time kerja nanti.

buat PJJ atau part time belajar macam abang aku.

tapi abang aku pulak target aku untuk masuk program pensyarah muda.

aku tertarik jugak dengan rancangan abang aku tu.

lagipun aku memang nak sambung degree.

hmm tapi kewangan je la masalah aku.

hmmmmm......tak tahu pulak aku being a grown up could be so difficult.

aku dah tak tahu apa yang aku inginkan dalam hidup sekarang ni~

it's hard isn't it?

Don't break my heart slow

I like the way you wanted me 
Every night for so long baby 
I like the way you needed me 
Every time things got rocky 

I was believing in you 
Was I mistaken do you mean 
Do you mean what you say 
When you say our love could last forever 

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie 
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye 
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know 
But baby don't you break my heart slow 

I like the way you'd hold me 
Every night for so long baby 
I like the way you'd sing to me 
Every time the things got rocky 

I was believing in you 
Was I mistaken do you say 
Do you say what you mean 
When you say our love could last forever 
 
Cause I'd rather you be mean than love and lie 
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye 
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know 
But baby don't you break my heart slow 

You'd run around and lead me on forever 
While I stay at home still thinking we're together 
I wanted our love to last forever

love this pain

She's no good for me, I know that she's a wildflower
She's got a restlessness, a beautiful mess thing about her
But here I am again, calling her back
Letting her drive me crazy

It's like I love this pain a little too much
Love my heart all busted up
Something bout her, we just don't work
But I can't walk away
It's like I love this pain

It's just an on again and off again situation
It's a striking match, a tank of gas combination
But here I am again lighting it up
Knowing that she'll just burn me

It's like I love this life, where nothing's right less something's wrong
It's like I'm just not me If I can't be a sad sad song

It's like I love this pain
It's like I love this pain


*in my case, 'she' changed to 'he'. Life is hard.